Looking Back to Capture Purpose

Two hours until I experience my first graduate committee meeting... Honestly I'm not nervous, but rather am anxious to get everyone's feedback vocally and in a more personal setting. It is such a great process to be a part of as an actor. These committee experiences throughout our time here at the University of Louisville should help us to develop an awareness of our weak points and a process by which we approach our personal growth in hope of achieving success.

My skills have greatly increased and reawakened as a result of having been part of this Playscript Analysis class. The characters and plays that we read over the course of this semester have helped me to connect to the reason it is that I pursue theatre… to express the human experience and bring about thought and change through my work. I need the world to listen to what I have to say and how I say it. As Hamm so wonderfully puts, “I hope the day will come when you’ll really need to have me listen to you, and need to hear my voice, any voice. (Pause)” The stage is the only place where one can live out all his multi-faceted aspects, and it allows you to communicate with people in the world like no other form of expression.

As I sit here writing my last blog entry for the semester, I can't help but smile at how powerfully affected I am by this semester… Moving forward through this graduate program, and life, I start to see the little reasons behind my activities in life and ways I go about them. I’m observing myself more and more as time goes by, analyzing and critiquing my personal processes and idiosyncrasies. Most importantly, I’m developing my love of theatre and learning how to most usefully contribute to the creative process. Through this self analysis and observation, I must never let go of the reason I’ve come to this world: to love what I do. Like Layal, I do not want freedom, but will gladly be a slave to the theatre, if it will only take care of me.

Layal: I don’t want freedom – to be alone? / I don’t care for it, I like protection / all I want is to feel it, love / I am crazy for it

I hope to approach theatre with this attitude. We’ll see if it takes care of me. Thanks for a great semester.